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Holding on and Missing out

I had the opportunity to go to my Landlord's house (TWitt) this weekend and participate in a pool volleyball tournament. I was planing on going then on Friday night I got a call fom TWitt asking if I was planning on playing. I thought I ad made it clear that I was the first time and was put off by the question. I thought for a moment and then told TWitt that I was not going to play. "I don't want to hang out with a bunch of people I don't know." To which Twitt replied, "How are you going to meet people then?"

My feelings were hurt and I know that they shouldn't have been. Twitt was just calling for her sister to get things situated but I took it as a hesitated invitation. Also Twitt and I have been speaking less then usual since JHam has left. Twitt's mom is also here and i don't want to intrude on family time.

Right now I feel as if the Gym and school are the only places I go but I don't know what else to do. Where do you make lasting friendships with people? When does it come easily?

I truly don't like being around people I don't know but I do try to make the best of situations when I am.

So... on friday TP and her husband came up and we ate Mexican, then I talked to CoCo and she convinced me to go to BG to eat Mexican with her the next day for lunch. I ended up going to TP's after that and just hanging out with her and the GolfPro. They help me out a lot and I know they don't realize it but they do.

TWitt and I went to the gym tonight but before we went I told her that my feelings had been hurt in the days prior and we talked it out. I am glad that when Twitt hurts my feelings I can tell her even though it is days later.... at least I don't hold it in.

So..... I feel like I am holding onto a life in Vandalia that is over, and in the same breath dragging my feet to what could be a life here.

Goodnight.

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  1. It takes about a year to get really settled in to a new place. At least a year. But just keep hanging out with people you don't know, and you'll figure out who you WANT to hang out with and they'll figure out that they want to hang out with YOU! :)

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